How do you decide?

I remember laying on the bed at the Dr.'s, waiting for the nurse to tell us if our 3rd baby we were having was going to be a boy or a girl. As soon as she said the words, "it's a girl!"....and I actually felt like I could believe her, I had the feeling come over me that having Miss Kinlee come would complete our family. That we were done. All through my pregnancy I felt like I could never do it again, that I wouldn't. It was too hard this time, too miserable. My feelings reassured over and over that a little "pink" would complete us.
Probably since the day we brought Kinlee home peyton has asked numerous times that we PLEASE have another. I told him when he is a dad he can have as many as HE wants. Haha
The begging hasn't stopped even with kinlee being 10, almost 11 months.
Tonight as I'm sitting here watching my little drew cough and cough. Whispering "mommy" and being able to be just the comfort he needs...I can't help but feel an amazing love and passion for something I had always dreamed of. Being a mom. Was the feeling I felt on the bed that day, a simple selfish feeling of what I only thought was complete? Seeing a pregnant mom or hearing a friend or sister is going in to have their baby, and me already secretly wishing that was me going into a delivery room. Will I always miss that? Do I just decide that now? I know I have at least a couple years to decide. But I guess one thing is certain, I'm blessed with a wonderful husband who won't make a permanent decision, who knows that plans change, even if its not on our own schedule.
I love being a mom. I know I wouldn't trade that for the world...

Little here and there...!

On Monday Peyts class had a parade for the Chinese New Year!
Peyt and Jax

the class with Miss Ding
Dad made it and saved us a great spot!
Me and Drew....he was a little bugged they weren't throwing out candy! hah :)
and there they go!
The teacher invited everyone to wear red in celebration of the new year! Grandma Debbie didn't even know and had red on too!
The 2nd graders combined with them and did the parade too!
We even got to see Brax pass through after the parade was done.
Peyt and his buddy Porter had matching outfits. He wouldn't get a pic with Miss Ding unless Porter was in it. Can you believe she is 39 and has a 12 or something old daughter?!? Crazy!
We checked on kin and she was cuddled up with her fav blankie!
Tys left us for the concrete show in Vegas! Glad he is back! :)
and we had a dance party! Fun to see their awesome moves!
I went through my box of things my mom saved from when I was little. Finally finding some girlie things for Hadlee to play with! It was Iron man playing with the dolls. Seriously hilarious!
and then their class had a Chinese assembly another day!
Drew being silly by Beckham!
They thought it was funny the light was shining right on them!


Drew can't wait to be 6 and learn chinese too!
We were visited by pink eye almost two weeks after the boys had gotten it in each eye! Poor Kin ended up with it in both eyes and woke up today with it again in both eyes:( GO away SICKNESS!
Still happy! YOu can see her eye swollen and red!
Sadie came and visited and brought puzzles for the boys. WE didn't get drew's done yet though.
and these cute pj's for kin with heart looking pockets on the bum! SO CUTE!
He wasn't a fan...he thought it was brownie batter BUT we were making cupcakes. hahaha he could tell a difference! :)
Peyt found each of them something to wear for the jazz game Friday nighT! They weren't going, but just watching on tv. haha :) CUTE!
madi and claire came over sat while their mom and dad went skiing...the choc chips fell on the floor and they thought it was hilarious eating them off the floor with their mouths! haha
Grandpa bruce brought cupcakes and drew wasn't supposed to have one yet. WE found him hovering over them in the kitchen, just waiting to dive in! cute!
So there we go, some pics still on my phone...gotta figure that out! Hope you're all doing well too!

**SOME UpLoAdS**

Love having my phone handy to take pics, but don't love that I haven't been able to get them off of it to the computer very easily...so this will have to do! :)
GiRLs Night to see FootLoose! LOVE that movie!
Peyt takin' Kinlee for a ride!
She LOVES her stuffed animals!
and her tea set!
A date night with the hubby's...we sent them to the Jazz game and should've went and played but both had to get back to the kiddos! Next time! :)
The boys layed with me one night and they were LOVING taking all these pics. It was fun! ...and...we were blinded! ha
Grandma Debbie took the boys to see the new Chipmunk movie! They loved it even the 2nd time around!
and probably... their FavoRite Aunt! She brought over such a fun Christmas present, always loves spending time with them and is just great! Thanks Sadie! You are awesome!
Drew bustin' his moves at the New Years Eve party!
SWEET glasses! We were so sad Tate and Dylan didn't get them too :(
half uploaded??? IDK :)
....? Love my hubby. REally. I do!
I may or may not have put mascara on her! hahaha she was getting right in the tub anyway....
Date night with Drew! Love my date nights with the boys...all 3!
Miss Kinlee loving her Minnie that Tys gave her!
GiRLs Night! Sadie always seems to ask at the right time, just when I seem to need a quick break. It ended on a bad note with Carston at the ER for getting hurt while bull riding. Glad to report he is OK! :)
SNOW fun! :)
While we watched the Lions game, I think Drew and Miya enjoyed the frosting on the cupcakes a little too much! :) haha
more SNOW fun! Kinlee loved her first time out. The boys loved shoveling and then I was lucky enough to have help from the neighbors! They are awesome. Guess they felt bad since Tys was gone :)
GIRL night! Love these nights too!
and last but not least....another GiRLs night for Heather who is soon to have her baby GIRL!!!!!!! We went and grabbed Cold Stone and might have snuck it into see New Years Eve! LOVED that movie! You gotta see it! Thanks Heather and thanks for always being such a great friend! :)
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OOPS! Forgot a few!


We went swimming at the Bountiful Pool with our fun Edgington friends! Thanks for the invite! We had lots of fun...except the boys ended up with Pink eye in BOTH eyes later that night! We still wonder if it's from them opening their eyes in the water? Crazy for sure!
and meet my great Stylist! One of a few... Thanks WY! LoVE having my hair done! :)